February 2012
2 posts
jesus christ im alone again
I opened my mouth to speak and words finally spilled out, flooding the room with your remains. I told them about you. How you gutted me and left me for dead all that time ago. I couldn’t tell them something monstrous wandered by, taking my empty shell as a home. I am a walking abomination. I wanted to thank you for teaching me to never love myself. How not to live. And youlll be here through...
The nervous collapsing of his chest slowed and his heart fell to a lull. I closed my eyes and gave myself to him. Not in the sense you’re thinking, no. I just let him have his night. I lay there with him in my arms, holding him the way you held me, and I let myself imagine what it would be like to be with him the way he imagined. It took everything out of me to get lost in the thought, to run my...